Friday, October 31, 2008

Halloween


As we sit here tonight on Halloween waiting for kids to show up in costume, knowing it will never happen, the night brings back memories of great past Halloweens. We have never lived in a place where kids show up in droves. We always have a big bowl of candy and if one is daring enough to brave the long, foggy, dark driveway they are rewarded with enough candy that they could actually end their quest right here. But, that never happens.

My kids never had Halloween when we lived in Eastern Washington. Talk about never being able to go trick or treating. So, when we moved to Gig Harbor and they were old enough, we started one of the most special traditions of Halloween.

First, a good two weeks before the big night, the pumkin carving had to take place. We would lay out the newspaper, dig out the biggest bowl we could find for the guts then go to work. Dad would always direct, Mom would always warn about the knife and being careful and the kids would just get slimy up to the elbows. It wasn't so much about how they turned out, just that we did it as a family and there were roasted pumpkin seeds at the end and Jack - O - Lanterns on the porch.

Then, after putting it off until the weekend before Halloween, we would shop the thrift stores to find just the right stuff for just the right costumes. We would start with either no idea or some idea that changed mid stream and leave the thrift stores with the best costume stuff ever, every year. Amazing how that happens. There were lots to choose from but I think the most memorable are noteworthy of mentioning here.

The very first official costumes were Batman and Robin. The boys were too young to realize the embarassment involved in wearing underwear dyed to match the costume on the outside of sweat pants.

I think everyone who saw him will never forget the sweet angel Statue of Liberty. I am fairly certain I will catch a lot of grief for publishing this photo but isn't he cute!

Not to be outdone, my favorite one for his brother was the Indian costume. His dad spent a long time making him a real bow and arrow. We found real fur armbands at the thrift store and while my sewing abilities were (and still are) limited, I was able to put together a tunic that was perfect. Of course, the brother had to be the Cowboy. Strange, the cowboy had the beard and the Indian didn't! Oh, how things change.

On Halloween night it always got dark early. We refused to be among the throng of parents who loaded up their vans with kids and found the most densely populated communities with the most money, drove there and unloaded the kids to scurry from house to house. Instead, we prepared the costumes, make up and all, at home. It was always cold so Dad and I would have to fix some sort of hot toddy in a Cougar mug and we would head out with Murphy, our dog, on a leash and this family would walk and walk and walk to any neighborhood around. I remember this like it was yesterday and it was so much fun.

Finally, after a couple of neighborhoods, everyone was tired, including the dog. We would finally make the decision that enough was enough and head on back. And, although they were tired, we had to check the candy to make sure it was void of danger and then the kids would go through and start their trading. One like chocolate better than the fruity candy and vice versa so alot of trading went on.

Those days are gone. Now, my oldest son is being the adult in a community of kids, bringing joy to them. My youngest is dressing up at college as who knows what and doing who knows what. What I do know is that any joy they derive from Halloween got its start at home, with us, and with the concerted effort we made to make sure these would be memories they would have forever. In return, I am certain they will create and maintain traditions of their own when they have families. I am just as certain that we will once again be able to experience these joys with them and with our grandchildren. No pressure there, right?

Happy Halloween to all!

Saturday, October 25, 2008

I miss my dad


It's been a year today since my dad passed away. I miss my dad.
Today is Saturday and on Saturdays I always took him out the Shari's for lunch, a pancake, well done, two strips of bacon and sometimes an egg over easy. There was almost always someone there he would see and with a disability of some sort and mention how sad that was. Never mind the fact that he could barely walk himself at that point.
From Shari's we would always head to Wal-Mart to shop. It had to be Wal-Mart because their store brand nicotine gum was so much better than Nicorette. He may have kicked his addiction to cigarettes but never to the gum. At Wal-Mart he would always interact with the little kids because they were so precious to him. I wondered what the parents thought but always, they understood this generational connection.
I'm so glad I had these Saturdays with my dad. I wish he were still here. I know the Saturday conversations would be especially lively during this politically charged time. He never lost his ability to discuss current events and I have to think that I could have gotten him to see the light in this election to vote for change in America. But either way, I would have welcomed the talk.
I am glad he did not have to witness the demise of his beloved Mariners.
I wish he could see his newest great-grandson, Haywood, now 6 months old and so beautiful, but I am ever so grateful that he knew of his coming prior to passing away. Never has life's cycle been so poignant, life and death all at once, somehow connected.
Today will be happy, sad, difficult but necessary. I will get together with my brothers and sister. We will remember, cry, laugh, and yes, drink margueritas, in remembrance of a life that was so full, and so dedicated to us.
While his body gave up on him, my dad never gave up on life and was with us to the end and beyond. I know he will be smiling today, holding Mom's hand and saying "Look honey, look at our kids. Aren't they great!"

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Why am I here?

My son is on an island in the Bering Sea making a difference with kids everyday, whether he knows it or not.
His friend is in the Peace Corp in Eastern Europe making a difference in the lives of the villagers every day.
These are 26 year old men.
I am almost 54 and finally find myself asking this question: Why am I here?
This question can be asked on many levels. Sometimes I find myself at the grocery store and have to ask myself why I am there, what was it I came to get?
Sometimes I am at work, bored as hell and the question has to pop up, doesn't it?
At the Oregon State vs Washington State Cougar football game this weekend the question was asked of me by a Beaver fan, "why are you here? Why would you drive so far knowing the result would be a pathetic performance resulting in such embarrassment?"
The answer, for me, is simple. Everything I do is filed away for future reference. Maybe that is why I survive the loneliness of being and Empty Nester. I was at that baseball game when my son hit the first Grand Slam home fun in Gig Harbor Little League history and I can smile about it even now. I was at that All Star game when my 9 year old son through a runner out at home plate from left field to everyone's surprise and I can be proud, even now. I was with both my parents when the passed on to whatever is there after their life on this world and I can be glad for that. And how could I have known that a choice of college that was originally made because of boy would shape my life for the better and be the reason I travel so far in support of the team?
So, when I get to this point, admittedly feeling every so slightly sorry for myself, I can pull up the file of past experiences and be every so grateful that they are there for me to answer the question of why I am here, just for the experience. It doesn't have to be any greater reason or purpose. Who knows what todays experience will become someday.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Vacation is over!

It has been a great couple of months. Hawaii, the ocean, Reno, Cougar tailgating, but through it all I have gotten away from regular workouts and eating as well as I should.

So now is the time to get back to it. It's not that it has destroyed me but I did gain 5 pounds back. I am now back to 188. This has to stop!

So now that it is out there I will have to make progress and I will. I still feel good but it is time to take it to the next level.

Is there a goal? I still have not achieved the 50 pounds I had originally and for now, that is the goal. That is 13 more pounds. If I could be there by Thanksgiving I would be very happy. I will do my best.

Fight Fight Fight for Washington State!